FuLL (of sadness)!! =(

Sighs..first of all, i just wana pour out my feelings here. 2 weeks ago, I sent my resume and cover letter to a big company called O&M for my internship. I was having high hopes for it cuz' its a big company, a good chance. And i also kinda confident about it. Waiting for this company's reply is like anticipating the football match to end like how u wish which team should win. I was really excited as i got their first reply and they asked for the examples of my work. So, i sent in some of my best works throughout my studies. 2 weeks later they haven reply, so i was worried and emailed them again. Then, they replied me saying thanks for following up, will get back to me again at the end of the week. And so, today is Friday, last day of the week. I was lying on my bed with my hp in silent mode, no vibration. When i checked my hp few minutes later to only found i have missed call from them! I was thinking who's number is it. so i checked my history log, dialed called, seems like its a company's number i called before. I got so excited and jumped out of my bed and quickly on my computer to check my email. I tried calling back but it's the general line they said won't have missed call etc...I dono. Then, i saw the mail! She said call her back. I sent a reply saying i dono which number to call back. And then not long after that, my hp rang. I picked up, with excitement, i hear what she has to say cuz she wants to call. She asked about when is the duration of my internship and i told her. She said need to check whether got space for me at that period of time. Then, the call ended. I thought to myself, "Thank God she called! Seems like got chance for me! =D" However, few minutes later, the company's number ringing again. It killed my joy and hope that didn't last for more than 10 minutes. I answered the call, it was her again. And she said "Unfortunately we don't have additional machine for u, so we cant take you in. Aww..You try other companies ok?".............................I couldn't express my sadness to her. I was eager to work in that company for some reasons. I was really looking forward to it cuz' it seems like i do have a chance. Sighs...and now all my hopes are shattered! T.T Feeling so sad now. Because they have no place for me to have my intern, no additional machine, FULL. Means, i cant get in cuz not enough machine and not cuz my work is bad right?? Ugh....the disappointment is really....unbearable....! T.T Why la????! Now I'm just waiting for Soon Yen's side for companies. Not sure got space onot. Perhaps its cuz I'm late for finding company. Now I'm worried i won't have a company for my intern d =S But assessment is so near. Im in such a crucial state now if i don't concentrate on my assignments first. But this....this....company.....I don't know why i wana go in there so much. Influence? cuz' i noe senior in there?? =( Sighs...It's so SAD! Sighs...

Oh well, i guess I'll just have to move on with my work here now...I hope i can have an ideal place for my internship..Just...surrender to God. I know He has good plans for me ahead. I should not worry so much on this. Alright. Please pray hard for me friends! thanks. =)